“Jazzy Dinner”
May 21, 2018Okay, hear me out. I just wanted to write for ten minutes tonight cos it’s been a while since i’ve done it.
I set out to write tonight, no specific goals in mind, but then I put on the Spotify “Jazzy Dinner” playlist, threw back five dirty vodka martinis, watched some youtube hockey compilations and a couple of TED talks on “how to write,” and here I am.
I’ve been attempting to write for almost a year now. And I’m looking to find the perfect form and structure that works for me. I don’t know if it’s following the Hero’s Journey or Saving the Cat or, my personal favorite, Dramatica, but I suppose moving forward a little bit at a time is better than not moving forward at all.
I’ve been listening to a lot of soundtracks, specifically revolving around Thomas Newman. I get a lot of Danny Elfman and Hans Zimmer from it, and it’s all well and good.
But, tonight, it’s the jazz that’s driving me. And it’s the jazz that, I believe, will be the driving force. I’m a big fan of Kerouac’s “On the Road,” which revolves around bebop. And I love the anime, Cowboy Bebop, both because it’s a great anime and because the music is fantastic. There’s’ definitely a driving feeling typing on my laptop right now while listening to this music.
It’s the alcohol, too. Don’t ever get me wrong about this. Being drunk is the thing that makes me not give a shit, and not be too self-critical. It’s the thing that makes me want to write and express myself. Usually, I express myself with music, but my music is something most people don’t end up hearing or appreciating. I like dark, heavy, loud when it comes to music. With the writing, I think the jazz and bebop and jazzy jazz bebop can help make things seem happier.
That’s the great thing about how I feel typing write now. There’s something so happy and freeing with the music coming out of my speakers but I imagine it juxtaposed next to some American Psycho-esque horror scene.
I’ve been listening to the audiobook of “You: A Novel,” and it’s fantastic. It’s the current version of psycho-thriller, a modern look at what crazy people look like. And I feel like I want to write about that stuff but don’t feel like I can. So I have to find a way to do that,
This 10-minute writing feels more like a blog cos I wasn’t trying to tell a story or write anything I’d share with the world. But sometimes it’s just about putting the effort in and seeing what happens. Maybe over time, these 10 minutes will turn into 20 into 30 into something worth exploring and sharing.